willingness

hardly can i find intense emotion on learning something after entering the university
and the bad mentation is out of control
or i don't want it be better and be passion
or i don't really know what's going on on me
move slower than anyone who i thought wasn't the one with flying colors in contrast with me before.
and when i realize what's all about, they already built substructure of their own dreams.
and i am lonely and got nothing material of my own.
luckily when i found all this, i still have time to enrich something to draw up.
always believe that never too late to do something remedy
and then came something called willingness, confidence building
and now, hope better everyday~
at least i know what's my position, really calming down isn't so easy for me before and that's exactly my weakness
not afraid now, willingness, the word from the book i ever read, gave me much motivity and inspire

yesterday when discussed with geane i heard something that greatly encouraged me that i'm not the one several years ago. i'm glad to hear the fact that i'm changing, and in a good direction, thanks geane, you really a good guy and i never forget you.